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Tuesday, April 30, 2002 {work: oakland, ca} late start i'm usually out the door by at the latest 7:15am. but i left at 7:25. i didnt get parking in the structure. =( good lawd, it's MAY already!?!? where did all the time go? * 10:33 AM * bernadette * * |
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Monday, April 29, 2002 {work: oakland, ca} sleepy monday *yawn* as much as i made myself look *busy* today, [i assigned myself to do a headcount report for this month, even though no one is asking for it], i am really tired from the weekend. okay, like what else is new?! angie's birthday dinner looking how neat is it to find something cool when you werent looking for it in the first place? it's like finding a $20 bill in your pocket in a jacket you havent worn since last winter. life is funny that way. ;) * 1:38 PM * bernadette * * |
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Friday, April 26, 2002 {work: oakland, ca} work = poo poo i am having a craptacular day. [see snuppy] while it's all cool and dandy that i have work to do, it's not really that fun when it's delivered in such a way that makes it seem like you werent doing shit all this time.... okay, while it's true i havent been doing shit all this time, but it's not like i was a lazy ass in the past. as if all this time i was suposed to be working my ass off to please this client, who, btw, wont give us a word whether or not they will be renewing...pretty much letting us sit here and guess the fate of our exsistance at work. it's almost as if we were going out/dating, and dude wasnt insterested, wasnt telling me, and was just stringing me along. so like why should i make the effort anymore? =P * 12:35 PM * bernadette * * |
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Thursday, April 25, 2002 {work: menlo park, ca} feeling sick? eat mcdonalds i was cleaning out my inbox and found this article that a friend sent me. hm...i had a sore throat yesterday. i think i might eat a quarter pounder for lunch. ;) * 11:02 AM * bernadette * * |
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{work: menlo park, ca} april babies there's just so many! just wanted to say: HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEAH!! hmm, july sure was a busy month. ;) * 10:50 AM * bernadette * * |
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Wednesday, April 24, 2002 {home: daly city, ca} the cats and some pictures for some reason i forgot to tell the manager in oakland yesterday, that i was going to be working in los gatos today. oops. =P im not sure what my connection speed will be like (or if i'll have one, for that matter), so instead of wondering where i am, you can take a gander at my pics from my birthday bash last thursday. contrary to popular belief, i am NOT 36 (thanks voodoo. =P). * 7:46 AM * bernadette * * |
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Tuesday, April 23, 2002 {work: oakland, ca} ho-hum going to work now consists of waking up early (6:30am) to get parking in the structure at colma, inhabiting a bart train with 50 strangers for about 30 minutes, walking three blocks in downtown oakland, taking the elevator to the 25th floor [basically rushing over here] only to chat on im all day. blog. and catch up on other ppl's blogs. sounds like a cushy job? yeah, but it gets old after a while. since i have all this down time, i almost wish i was out doing something else. make better use of my time (not that i dont enjoy chattin w. y'all on the IM, i do). like hanging out at the park and flying my kite. or spending time in a museum. or sleeping. or cleaning out my storage bins. or organizing my pictures. and then when someone has a request, page me. kinda like being on-call. no one's really asking for anything right now. and when they do i get annoyed because they are really lame requests. i should be looking for another job. the highlight of my workday will be a conference call at 1pm. *ho-hum* * 10:56 AM * bernadette * * |
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Monday, April 22, 2002 {work: oakland, ca} birthday weekend - the extended remix ever have a never-ending birthday? i did, this past weekend... the cool thing about it, was that i had a good balance of everything. =): dinner surprise work sucks it took me awhile to write this out [try all day]. yet there was nothing to do here. my eyes hurt. must have been the too much chatting. LOL!!! can i go on vacation now? thanks. * 9:24 AM * bernadette * * |
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Sunday, April 21, 2002 {home: daly city, ca} happy birthday!.... to my car!! =) well, technically it's more of a "happy anniversary!" i have owned my car for exactly one year today. hehe, i guess you could say it was a birthday present to myself last year. =) * 11:42 PM * bernadette * * |
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Thursday, April 18, 2002 {work: menlo park, ca} where are you taking me!? i was sitting here "working" away at my desk, minding my own business ("working"=blogging, for those of you just tuning in...), when i hear random conversations going around.... "so you're riding with who ...?" of course i'm in my "working" zone, so i dont know what everyone is up to... all of a sudden, my co-worker Liz says: "well hurry up, bern! we're leaving now! .. look she's still working!" huh? whaaa? .. i was too stuck in my template--er, i mean "work", to know what she was talking about... i was then ushered outside into the car, where my other coworker was. they drove me to.... my surprise birthday lunch at McArthur Park (a restaurant) in Palo Alto! yay! it was cool seeing the whole group from menlo together again, esp since i'm only here in menlo park once a week. everyone remembered my birthday! cool thing about McArthur Park: they have really really really good mocha mud pie! =) "so what are your birthday plans, bern?" party. tonight. be there. email me if you wanna know where! just know, i'll be calling in "sick" tomorrow!!! hehehehe ;) * 3:37 PM * bernadette * * |
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{home: daly city, ca} yay it works now! thanks to egg tart and the blogger archive script generator, my archive works. life is good. =) mad props to the kids in the "insomniacs club". you guys rule. ;) why am i still up? i have no freaking clue. * 12:39 AM * bernadette * * |
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{home: daly city, ca} the birth of a new.... look. like my blog's new outfit? life would be great if the archives worked and if i knew what it was that was making my page cause errors. =P oh, and... i just have to say it (cuz i'd forget in my old age, right?;)): happy birthday to me! * 12:11 AM * bernadette * * |
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Wednesday, April 17, 2002 {home: daly city, ca} are you ready? here goes... so what do you think? * 8:10 PM * bernadette * * |
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{home: daly city, ca} one more day.... one day more. * 12:25 AM * bernadette * * |
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Tuesday, April 16, 2002 {work: oakland, ca} resistance is futile welcome, yet another borg... er, i mean BLOGger. hehe ;) hi judy! welcome to the collective. ;) * 3:08 PM * bernadette * * |
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{work: oakland, ca} no class today, but... i got an email yesterday saying that class was cancelled because our instructor had a family tragedy. in my head i was like "yay, no class!!!" -- one less thing to worry about this week. i read my email this morning and one of my classmates sent out an message saying that our instructor's son was in the morning chronicle obituaries. whoa. for some reason, in my head yesterday, "family tragedy" didnt register as something as fatal and unsettling as his son dying this past sunday. the nature of his death is not mentioned in the obituary, except that it was accidental. oh my. isnt it funny how certain events can change the way you perceive life, and how very short it is.... when i was in the ER on sunday with my mom, i thought about how life would be like without her. i mean, granted, at the time, i didnt think that the little food poisoning would be tragic in any way. but i imagined what it was like. it felt empty. there was a hole there. i, of course, was glad that they didnt find anything harmful in her bloodwork, and sent her home with meds to relieve the dizzyness and nausea. im really glad she's okay and that she's recovering.... but for my instructor, life must not be well for him and his family. =( i'm conteplating going to the service, since it's near home, but im not sure how i'd be able to handle that, esp since i'm just his student and stuff. they'll be surrounded by family and friends, and i didnt know his son at all. but i guess it's the thought, right? * 8:56 AM * bernadette * * |
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Monday, April 15, 2002 {work: oakland, ca} here's a riesen number of times i blogged today: 3 numer of entertainment websites i visited: 3 number of travel websites i looked at: 5 number of times i checked email today: 50 number of work-related things i did today: 0 number of riesen chocolates i ate: 4 i really need to go home. =P * 3:51 PM * bernadette * * |
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{work: oakland, ca} the new pyramid scheme blogging, that is, if we got money for it. welcome new blogger angie! pay her blog some respects, kay?! =) * 1:10 PM * bernadette * * |
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{work: oakland, ca} why is it SO C-C-C-O-O-L-L-L-D-D-DD-D?????!! what's up with the weather? i thought for sure it would be sunny and warm by now. it's sunny, but windy as f*ck! =P i wore the wrong thing to work too -- i bought these really cute capri pants on saturday and decided to wear them today, with shoes w.out socks. what a mistake. my feet are cold. =P i miss the weekend it's only monday and i already miss the weekend. not too much on-the-go for the bee (surprisingly enough) this past weekend, but there was enough to keep me busy and there was some "chill" down time, and an unexpected visit to the hospital ER .... the contra costa show hm, i stand corrected. i actually did a LOT this weekend. i've been at work for... almost three hours, and have not done anything work related. boss is out on vacation, my manager has not called me yet, and another manager called in sick. id like to go home right about now.... * 10:27 AM * bernadette * * |
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Friday, April 12, 2002 {work: oakland, ca} yay! the drugs kicked in. i can now breathe. life is good. =) * 2:26 PM * bernadette * * |
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{work: oakland, ca} i cant breathe i had an allergy attack yesterday afternoon. usually when that happens, i sneeze my head off, my eyes start to squint and water, and then my whole entire head feels like there's a big old balloon stuffed up in there. i hate that. i was doing so well too. what sucked was that my drugs didnt kick in too well. ususally by the early evening, the symptoms subside, and i'm cool as a mule. apparently not. =P so now, i'm congested still. =( we have a show tonight in addition to the stuffed head, i had a late start today, because i had to get my make-up together for tonight's likha show at contra costa community college. luckily i dropped off my costumes at bev's last night so i wouldnt have to worry about it. oh boy, do i have the energy? on the periphery i'm planning a trip to London and Paris. 10 days. in July. possibly with my cousin (who is already in london), meesh, and denise. anyone else want to go? ;) * 9:40 AM * bernadette * * |
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Thursday, April 11, 2002 {work: menlo park, ca} "i'm going to take my car to the vet." took my car to the shop ;) this morning for an oil change. 17112 -- the number of miles driven since April 21, 2001 yes, little maxie will be turning one in the next week. oh boy, i cant believe i've traveled that many miles! that song in my head i have a rondalla song in my head -- maliguena. the steps and choreography are in my head too. * 9:49 AM * bernadette * * |
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Wednesday, April 10, 2002 {work: oakland, ca} new blogger[s] since bev and gary have been talking about how the blog collective grows, i'm sure you've noticed the new additions to my blog -- kitchie (who i've added her before, just wanted to see if guys noticed ;)), and now randell. still waiting on a few ppl.... *ahem* eloise *cough* angie *aherrrm* sheri *cough* ttg *aaaeheehmm*. hellooo? hm, maybe we should get commissions for this. ;) * 5:06 PM * bernadette * * |
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{work: oakland, ca} how ironic i just noticed. that i blogged about how time flies in one post. and then how slow it's going in another. cant seem to make up my mind. oh boy. =P * 10:07 AM * bernadette * * |
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{work: oakland, ca} only one hour into the work day... and already i want to go home. what i've done so far: checked work email -- one (1) thought for the day from a bigwig, three (3) "company-wide" email msgs re: someone needs spare computers, two (2) msgs from our company w. quarterly publications, one (1) industry related msg re: business seminar, one (1) msg from my dad re: his itinerary for this thursday okay, i have about 8 more hours to go.... *sigh* this will be a slow day, i can feel it already... tick tock tick tock.... * 9:50 AM * bernadette * * |
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{work: oakland, ca} april already? i know it's april. but i just cant believe how time just flies like that. do you realize we're in the fourth month of the year 2002!? okay, i'm just going through this thing since my b-day is around the corner. =P * 9:09 AM * bernadette * * |
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Monday, April 08, 2002 {work: oakland, ca} pessimism -- a single girl's perspective i just read what gary posted today about pessimism regarding us single girls. yes, that word exists in the merriam-webster dictionary: Main Entry: pes·si·mism it's hard to think that in this day and age it's easy to find the perfect mate. it's so not. the pool gets way small after you graduate from college. i was just telling one of our dancers in likha who is still in college, that the pool of meeting potential shrinks about 1/8th after undergrad. "what about the guys you meet at work?" oh man, you DO NOT want to go there. =P "how about going out to the clubs and meeting proffessional type ppl?' damn, just you wait til you get to be my age and single. it's just not the place.... if you are one of the lucky few who were able to meet their significant other when they were in high school or college, and are hooked up long-term, and are STILL together, yes, i gotta give major props to you. you were able to keep that relationship going as long as you can and havent driven each other crazy yet....;) most couples who marry/get together early have a 50/50 chance of making "love" survive. i put "love" in quotes, only because i've realized lately that it takes more than just love to make a relationship work. being a couple is like a partnership. it's an understanding. it's the acceptance of one another, faults and all. it's compromise. it's patience. i read somewhere a relationship is like two trains that meet and travel side by side, going in the same direction, but on your own track... that's how it supposed to be. be with someone, but retain your individuality. the person you're with is supposed to enhance your life. i think the pessimism comes out from all the failed relationships that we see/have been in, the "loser"-type guys we've gone out with, especially the ones we have to "raise" in the relationship. for us single gals like me, sheri, denise, nair, angie, char, dawn etc.. (yes, MEN, there are a LOT of us good single women out there... ) it's a lot harder to find someone strong enough to HANDLE our strong-mindedness and our independence. oh yes, dont forget a key factor -- in addition to having the same goals and outlook in life, you need attraction. there have been many guys who i've thought were cool, but there was just nothing there. the spark. that "special something". no offense guys, it's just the way us gals feel. we sometimes just dont feel you like that. and there's nothing wrong with you. at all. you're still cool. just not in that way.... down the line perhaps? i'm not sure, that's hard to say... which also leads me to believe that there's nothing wrong with US at all either. we just havent found the guy yet. are we hung up on finding the "perfect" one? hmmm... well, nobody's "perfect". we're just looking for the one that compliments our not-so-perfect being. you (not you, gary, but guys in general) call us "picky". well, isnt that a good thing? we just dont want to settle for just any old guy. "you like me? well i like you too...." *look him up and down* "yeah, you'll do. okay, now just pick me up everyday after work, call me everyday to ask how im doing, come to these weddings with me.... oh, and i expect flowers on my birthday" um no. cant work that way. this is just destined to fail! =P i'd like to think that we're not picky. we just havent found someone who can challenge us to be more than we are. *sigh* a lot of the times, when us gals dwell on the lack of potential love interests, is maybe because we want to associate with our "pack" the single gal pals who are also having trouble finding "the one". maybe there isnt "the one" to begin with. maybe there is a handful of "ones" that we're destined to meet and it's just about timing and circumstance that allows us to be with/not be with the one who is our "one". hm, did that make sense? maybe society has disillusioned us to thinking that there is this fairytale "prince"/"knight in shining armor" that is supposed to "sweep us off our feet". [damn you, disney] and that's just it, it's an illusion. relationships take a lot of work, in additon to the aforementioned "love". at any rate, that is where the pessimism comes from. am i jaded? a little. am i sick of that preconceived notion that i was supposed to get married by age 25 and have 1.5 kids by the time i was 29? sure. is it too late? the women of the millenium tend to marry a lot later in life, like say in their early thirties. so it's not too late. i'd like to think it isnt. i'm realizing that this is just way too much clutter and drama to worry about. to the point where i dont think i'm ready to be in a relationship. probably because there's no one right now that i find "compliments" me and can take my "shit". ;) lol. or maybe he's there and i just dont know... but im finding that i like the things that i do, i like being the busy bee.... and i still need to figure stuff out -- and there is STILL much clutter w. in myself (CLOSET and STORAGE BINS, included) that i have to sort before im with someone. but it is rather annoying when someone asks you why you dont have a man. so next time, single gals, when someone asks you, "why are you still single?" or "how come you're not married yet?" you can tell them: "Even God is single.... so stop giving me a hard time!!!!" oh, man, this just turned into an aiyah blog. hehehehe ;) in the meantime, even though i have all this "pessimism", and i feel like i'm not ready, i'd like to think i'm having fun in the process. after all life is a journey. as voodoo says.... ALWAYS accepting applications. ;) * 10:38 AM * bernadette * * |
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{work: oakland, ca} daylight savings an anomalous event. who ever thought of this? and why do we have to change time every six months? and do we really "save" daylight? =P the breakfast of champions apparently a box of mike & ike's must be the breakfast choice for kids these days. i saw a kid around 8 years old munching these on bart this morning. * 9:51 AM * bernadette * * |
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Friday, April 05, 2002 {work: oakland, ca} oh, delicious! for ms luzon we went to Aux Delices ["Auntie Lisa's" according to joanie, hehe] for beverly's birthday last night. i can never pronouce the name of that restaurant right. but since the food is so GOOD, i dont mind calling it "oh deilcious"! hehe. there were a good number of ppl who showed up despite the ugly parking situation. i had a great time, chitchatting w. everyone. i caught up w. melanie (bev's "ate") and her fiance, bill. the last time i saw melaine was at the in and out off of ralston ave in mountain view. random! gary's buddy, curtis was there, too. funny thing is whenever i see curtis, it's always been at Aux Delices. hehe. bev loved all of her gifts, including the "boot bindings" i got for her. LOL! i still cant believe i fit both bags in that little box. ;) HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEV! okay gary, now where are the pictures?! ;) oops, cant forget another april birthday even tho you're in vegas: HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHN! now win money so you can take me shopping. my birthday is around the corner.... hehe ;) * 11:24 AM * bernadette * * |
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Thursday, April 04, 2002 {work: menlo park, ca} can i just say that dial-up sucks? dial-up sucks. =P * 9:38 AM * bernadette * * |
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Wednesday, April 03, 2002 {work: oakland, ca} commute relay i found it funny how i ran into people on the morning commute: bev -- i saw her at the top of the colma parking structure. this is actually not unusual, because our commute times correspond occasionally. we got on bart and she got off at the embarcadero station. i continued on bart to 19th street oakland. i walked down the street towards my building and as i got to the corner of webster and 20th, i saw.... i never ran into so many ppl. especially at different times in the process of getting to work. hehe. ... and so starts my wednesday. * 8:49 AM * bernadette * * |
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Tuesday, April 02, 2002 {work: oakland, ca} the new season hockey started last night. first game of the season and we tied 6-6. cool thing is that the latest game time is 9:30 since there are only 6 teams on the monday copper league. there are a lot of newbies, and of course, me being the "seasoned veteran", i find it ironic that i have not been able to score a goal yet. =P this season. for sure! reminds me of a quote from the "fortune cookie" garage: "before you can score, you must have a goal" W it was the first of april birthdays last night, and i found myself at the W hotel on 3rd and howard in the city after the hockey game for david's 27th bday. (busy bee....buzz buzz buzz). Imagine the Z gallerie as the model for this lobby/bar. talk about bourgie. hehehe. it was a cool place, tho, and a lot of ppl turned out, which is surprising for a monday night! voodoo came to hang out, in addition to the ususal summermadness crew, hockey guys, plus more of dave's friends. i can't believe i got home at 1am! good news raffy, the son of one of the dancers in likha has been in the hospital for a few weeks now fighting this really UBER-strong bacterial infection. i found out that he is doing well. i visited him on saturday, and fides was saying that his fever kept rising and falling, due to his body fighting the bacteria, which just wont die! they had operated on him a few days before to drain the pus and garbage from his right leg. and they must have tried every combination of medication to kill the bacteria. lil raffy even had his own little button to give himself morphine for the pain. he was in okay spirits when i visited, and was even engrossed in the maze book i gave him. what a traumatic experience for a kid of 6 years old! i'm just glad he's doing better and will probably be leaving the hospital by the end of the week. =) * 11:46 AM * bernadette * * |
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Monday, April 01, 2002 {work: oakland, ca} in an urkel-esque voice: "did i do that?!" last night after this last post, i was making my way upstairs to bed. i turned off my computer (which was across the room from the stairs) and was debating if i should walk to the stairs to turn on the lights, and then walk back to the computer to turn off the lights (you know that whole back and forth action of turning off and on lights to light your way)....... i was tired. i was lazy. i decided to just turn off the light at the computer and walk in the dark toward the stairs, where i would then turn on the light. slowly i crept in the darkness, feeling for any obstruction that might harbor my progress. i was almost there.... *TWOCK* holy shit. i hit something!!! something fell!! i didnt even hit it that hard! what was it?! i turned on the lights at the stairs. there, spilled over w. soil scattered across the floor, was my mom's potted plant. she had just transplanted it, which means the soil was loose. which means what i saw was the pot, on the ground (NEW HARDWOOD FLOOR and RUG, mind you), the soil was EVERYWHERE. and of course the plant was there too. *sigh* ah yes, the spilling curse at its finest hour: early monday, 1am, when everyone was asleep. and i just stared at it. i could leave it there, and clean it in the morning. but it was too big of a mess to leave. i stood the pot upright and started scooping the soil back in. i scooped and scooped. DAYAM, there's hella soil in this little plant!!! finally when it looked like i got most of it, i pulled out the vacccuum. and started vacuuming. at 1am. when everyone was asleep. my dad poked his head down the stairs. "what are you doing?" i felt stupid. i spent more time creeping around the dark and spilling things, than just doing the back and forth turn on/off lights to light my way. what a doofus. hehehehehe.... =P * 6:20 PM * bernadette * * |
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